I seem to be struggling with words a bit lately. I am in a phase where I am learning and absorbing so much and I just want to keep quiet and allow it all to soak into my being. But I really wanted to share with you something that I learned from this little guy....
He taught me a huge lesson yesterday. He taught me that I can trust myself, trust my inner artist and trust the creative process. He taught me that if I do my part, and just show up at the canvas, the universe (God, higher power..whatever) will take care of the rest. JUST SHOW UP.
Sometimes, when I think about doing something creative, I get completely paralyzed with fear. I feel like I can't get myself together enough to just start something....anything..because I am obsessed with a beautiful outcome. I am a perfectionist and my art MUST be perfect...otherwise what is the point??? This way of thinking can be completely overwhelming and kept me creatively blocked for years.
Here is what Julia Cameron has to say about this stuff...
"Our ego plays this little trick to keep us from getting started. Instead of allowing ourselves a creative journey, we focus on the length of the trip. 'It's such a long way,' we tell ourselves.
At the heart of the anorexia of artistic avoidance is the denial of process. We like to focus on having learned a skill or on having made an artwork. This attention to final form ignores the fact that creativity lies not in the done but in the doing."
Did you get that???? Creativity lies not in the DONE but in the DOING. Whoa!!! It is so easy for me to forget this, especially working in graphic design and advertising when all that matters to the client is the printed piece that brings in sales.
So back to little elephant guy. When I finally gathered enough courage to show up at the canvas yesterday he is what appeared. I took things one tiny step at a time. I had no idea what I wanted to paint, I just started with one small thing, then another and another. And he was born and I love him.
I LOVE this painting. Not necessarily because it represents any great talent, but because of it's birth process.
So now I am trying to meet authentic creativity where it truly exists.....in the process. I am learning to relax and trust. I am learning, when it rains to let it rain....soak it up!!
Obsessing over...a lamp.
4 years ago